I usually dont like to write ridiculous blogs, emails, or get in the middle of shit. I have been TRYING to steer CLEAR of things that could effect my moods and my life. I have been thru A LOT the past few weeks and I feel like I needa GOOD cleansing. So here it is:
WE ALL have more important things to worry about then who is talking SHIT about who. Yet, at SOME point in our lives we ALL gossip, we ALL open our mouths and ask "promise not to tell anyone"?, thinking that the person you CONFIDE in wont have someone CLOSE to them to tell YOUR secret to. SO, here it is nice and simple. STOP putting yourselves in situations that CAUSE DRAMA. There is NO NEED. We are ALL obviously NOT friends for one reason or another and it's NOT the end of the world. We grow apart, move on to other things in life and BECOME adults, (although lately it seems we are ALL GUILTY of acting otherwise). It's stupid. Everyone should stop running their mouths about EVERYONES business INCLUDING MINE. I have been thru TOO MUCH and would appreciate it if everyone could stop asking me if I AM OK, talking about my BF, and wondering what the FUCK I am doing. I dont worry about ANY of you because like i said, "I HAVE MORE important things to worry about and YOU ALL are NOT on my agenda." I am in a place where I WANT to be and IF I ever change my mind, ILL "HOLLER" at you and let you know.
LOVE ME.
<3
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Thursday, March 5, 2009
2 New Books
I have been reading A LOT more again lately to pass my time at work when I am NOT working. I have added 2 new books to my "book list". Those 2 new books are:
Feel The Fear....And Do It Anyway - I saw it at Borders and thought to myself, WHY NOT? I can always use a good self help book. It will always make me feel better and take a new perspective on life and things IN my life. So, I am starting that today. I think it also may be one of those books where you take notes. I'll let you know the outcome and IF all my fear went away and i DID IT ANYWAY. LOL.
The 2nd book is:
A Piece of Cake - I don't know why this one stood out to me. It may have been the sprinkles of pink, green, orange, and white on the cover or the fact that it was the last copy on the stand. Whatever it was, it made me WANT to buy it. It is about a woman named Cupcake Brown who goes thru a WHOLE shit load of drama. It says she stumbles into gangbanging, drug dealing, hustling, prostitution, theft, and eventually, the best scam of all: a seris of 9-to-5 jobs. LOL. Maybe it is because her name is Cupcake along with all the stuff that she has been thru that made me want to read her memoir but I am going to read it and let you know ALL about it. So, be prepared. LOL.
Well thats all so far. I'll get back to you. :) I love books. :)
Feel The Fear....And Do It Anyway - I saw it at Borders and thought to myself, WHY NOT? I can always use a good self help book. It will always make me feel better and take a new perspective on life and things IN my life. So, I am starting that today. I think it also may be one of those books where you take notes. I'll let you know the outcome and IF all my fear went away and i DID IT ANYWAY. LOL.
The 2nd book is:
A Piece of Cake - I don't know why this one stood out to me. It may have been the sprinkles of pink, green, orange, and white on the cover or the fact that it was the last copy on the stand. Whatever it was, it made me WANT to buy it. It is about a woman named Cupcake Brown who goes thru a WHOLE shit load of drama. It says she stumbles into gangbanging, drug dealing, hustling, prostitution, theft, and eventually, the best scam of all: a seris of 9-to-5 jobs. LOL. Maybe it is because her name is Cupcake along with all the stuff that she has been thru that made me want to read her memoir but I am going to read it and let you know ALL about it. So, be prepared. LOL.
Well thats all so far. I'll get back to you. :) I love books. :)
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Unreasonable Happiness
OK, so as most of you know, a few blogs back I told you all about the books that I wanted to read and see if they REALLY change my life. Well I just got done reading The Way of The Peaceful Warrior. Now, I have different thoughts about this book and it's meaning, all of which are good. It's about a guy Dan Millman, (the author), and an old "warrior" named Socrates that works at a gas station. This old warrior trains Dan even though he is an athlete and competes in the world of gymnastics. This training is pretty much "life training". They met in the dark of the night, become friends and then of course all throughout the book there is meaning of LIFE. There is a bit of romance, I dont want to give it away, but it's a happy ending. It's basically about the past, present and future. I marked some pages that I thought were meaningful to ME and I want to share them. So here it goes. Just a few quotes, this isnt going to be a book report! LOL
~Just as there are different interpretations of the past and many ways to change the present, there are anumber of possible futures.
~Consciousness in not IN the body; the body is IN the Consciousness. And you are the Consciousness.
~Everything has a purpose; it's for you to make the best use of it. There are no accidents. Everything is a lesson. Trust your life. Everything has a purpose.
~Don't get distracted by experiences. Experiences come and go.
~Any unconscious, compulsive ritual is a problem. When you sit, sit; when you stand, stand; whatever you do, don't wobble. Once you make your choice, do it with spirit. Don't be like the preacher who thought about praying while making love to his wife and thought about making love to his wife, while praying.
~Beneath all our apparent differences we share the same human needs and fears; we're all on the same path together, guiding one another. And this understanding brings compassion.
~There are NO ordinary moments
~Meditating an action is different from doing it. To do, there is a doer, a self-conscious 'someone' perfroming. But when you meditate an action, you've already released attachment to outcomes. There's no 'you' left to do it. In forgetting yourself, you become what you do, so your action is free, spontaneous, without ambition, inhibition, or fear.
~You've learned names and categories for everything. You've become bored with things because they only exist as names to you. The dry concepts of the mind obscure your direct perception.
~The time is NOW and the place is HERE.
~Action always happens in the present, because it is an expression of the body, which can only exist in the here and now. But the mind is like a phantom that lives only in the past or future. Its only power over you is to draw your attention out of the present. Stay in the present. It's safer.
~Love is the warriors sword; wherecer it cuts, it gives life, not death. Love is not something to be understood; it can only be lived.
~You cannot attain happiness; it attains you.
Now I know that without reading the actual BOOK, you can't fully understand the situation in which these words were used and why, but these quotes I think pretain to something in your life. To everyone reading. We all live and die but we don't use our time wisely. We don't love completely. We bullshit people and we lie, cheat, and steal. To me this book showed me that I need to STOP living in the PAST, focus on the PRESENT, so I have a wonderful FUTURE. If you dwell on things, you won't get much accomplished. If you worry and worry, you won't be happy because all that YOU are attaining is UNHAPPINESS and worry for yourself. Everyone should be as HAPPY as they can be.
My favorite quote from this WHOLE book was at the end and it made me tear up.
Dan said to Socrates:
~Some things and people are very difficult to love; it seems impossible to always feel Happy.
And Socrates said to Dan:
~Feelings change. Sometimes sorrow, sometimes joy. But beneath it all remember the innate perfection of your life unfolding. That is the secret to UNREASONABLE HAPPINESS.
So, with those words, this is the end. If you get a chance to read this book, please do so. It is great and you may take it differently then I have. I think it has everything to do with "Staying in the present. Its safer." :)
LoveLove.
~Just as there are different interpretations of the past and many ways to change the present, there are anumber of possible futures.
~Consciousness in not IN the body; the body is IN the Consciousness. And you are the Consciousness.
~Everything has a purpose; it's for you to make the best use of it. There are no accidents. Everything is a lesson. Trust your life. Everything has a purpose.
~Don't get distracted by experiences. Experiences come and go.
~Any unconscious, compulsive ritual is a problem. When you sit, sit; when you stand, stand; whatever you do, don't wobble. Once you make your choice, do it with spirit. Don't be like the preacher who thought about praying while making love to his wife and thought about making love to his wife, while praying.
~Beneath all our apparent differences we share the same human needs and fears; we're all on the same path together, guiding one another. And this understanding brings compassion.
~There are NO ordinary moments
~Meditating an action is different from doing it. To do, there is a doer, a self-conscious 'someone' perfroming. But when you meditate an action, you've already released attachment to outcomes. There's no 'you' left to do it. In forgetting yourself, you become what you do, so your action is free, spontaneous, without ambition, inhibition, or fear.
~You've learned names and categories for everything. You've become bored with things because they only exist as names to you. The dry concepts of the mind obscure your direct perception.
~The time is NOW and the place is HERE.
~Action always happens in the present, because it is an expression of the body, which can only exist in the here and now. But the mind is like a phantom that lives only in the past or future. Its only power over you is to draw your attention out of the present. Stay in the present. It's safer.
~Love is the warriors sword; wherecer it cuts, it gives life, not death. Love is not something to be understood; it can only be lived.
~You cannot attain happiness; it attains you.
Now I know that without reading the actual BOOK, you can't fully understand the situation in which these words were used and why, but these quotes I think pretain to something in your life. To everyone reading. We all live and die but we don't use our time wisely. We don't love completely. We bullshit people and we lie, cheat, and steal. To me this book showed me that I need to STOP living in the PAST, focus on the PRESENT, so I have a wonderful FUTURE. If you dwell on things, you won't get much accomplished. If you worry and worry, you won't be happy because all that YOU are attaining is UNHAPPINESS and worry for yourself. Everyone should be as HAPPY as they can be.
My favorite quote from this WHOLE book was at the end and it made me tear up.
Dan said to Socrates:
~Some things and people are very difficult to love; it seems impossible to always feel Happy.
And Socrates said to Dan:
~Feelings change. Sometimes sorrow, sometimes joy. But beneath it all remember the innate perfection of your life unfolding. That is the secret to UNREASONABLE HAPPINESS.
So, with those words, this is the end. If you get a chance to read this book, please do so. It is great and you may take it differently then I have. I think it has everything to do with "Staying in the present. Its safer." :)
LoveLove.
Friday, February 6, 2009
Small summary
So, I finished Breaking Dawn a few days ago and have started reading one of my new books. Breaking Dawn was an entertaining book and I am glad that I read all 4 of the Twilight books. I would suggest that if you haven't read them, well, you should. Get on it. They will keep you UN-BORED. LOL. The new book that I have started to read is The Way Of The Peaceful Warrior. I am on Book 2 Chapter 4. It is a great book so far and has made me think a little here and there about life, my mind wandering, and Socrates. LOL. You just have to read it. I will get more in depth about it once I finish it. I am on page 93 and this book is only 212 pages long. Hopefully I should be done sooner than later. :)
Monday, January 26, 2009
Las Vegas 2009
I guess I can say that I am starting to have some New Years resolutions on my mind. I didnt start the New Years off with ANY, so here it is:
One would be to Blog more, about ANYTHING. I am finding it easier to talk about random things here and there and add pictures. I enjoy it. It's fun and it helps everyone get to know ME and where I live better. :) I guess I am becoming successful at that, as you can tell. LOL.
Another one would be to READ MORE. I have that down already. I am finishing Breaking Dawn and then have a plethora of books that are waiting in line to be open, held, and bookmarked. I also have The Monster Book Of Sudoku that has been on my desk forever, which I KNOW is not a READING book but it keeps me busy... I shall get to finishing that ONCE I learn how to conquer the Moderate, Demanding, and then BEWARE! Very Challenging. LOL. I'll get back to you on those.
My last one which I AM trying harder at is taking more pictures... whether it be of my friends when we are out with my SHITTY or NICE camera. This weekend I am going to buy some filters and a ring flash for my Canon. I will test it out and see what happens.
So, about my weekend. I went out to Dino's with my besties! Everyone was there. By the pictures you would only think that Cherice, Me, and Gen were there but I PROMISE, there were other bodies there as well. :) LOL. I sang "Beautiful" by Christina Aguilera.. Yeah, not so... Um, beautiful? LOL. I also did "Killing Me Softly" By The Fugees. Good stuff.
These next pictures are from The Wynn Hotel and Casino. Louis and I went there one day to drop off a friend at work and then ended up walking around and hanging out. We just wanted to act like tourists. That didnt last long. We came across the waterfall outside and started snapping pictures of us in front of it. It ended there. We walked back to my car to get in and leave....but...
For ME, it was a hot day BUT FOR LOUIS, he thought it was a BIT chilly. SOOO, I gave him my jacket. He didnt like how it fit. I, however, thought he looked adorable. I got a few good chuckles. LOL.
On the way HOME from the Strip there was this cool strange building that the city is adding on to MORE buildings SOON to come. We were driving past it and I thought it was cool. I had Louis snap the picture as we were in the turning lane. It's over at the World Market Center? I believe thats the name. A HUGE furniture store. I don't know what THIS has to do with furniture? ....but here it is. :)
AND, FINALLY LAST but NOT LEAST, over the weekend, Louis and I babysat for his sister. She has the CUTEST baby I have ever seen. His name is Adam. I love him. He was so good ALL night. I played baseball with him, dorve his car, and he even sat in my lap for a few to watch some SpongeBob. I thought you might get a kick out of how adorable he is. :)
That's all I got for you guys now but more to come. I promise! :)
One would be to Blog more, about ANYTHING. I am finding it easier to talk about random things here and there and add pictures. I enjoy it. It's fun and it helps everyone get to know ME and where I live better. :) I guess I am becoming successful at that, as you can tell. LOL.
Another one would be to READ MORE. I have that down already. I am finishing Breaking Dawn and then have a plethora of books that are waiting in line to be open, held, and bookmarked. I also have The Monster Book Of Sudoku that has been on my desk forever, which I KNOW is not a READING book but it keeps me busy... I shall get to finishing that ONCE I learn how to conquer the Moderate, Demanding, and then BEWARE! Very Challenging. LOL. I'll get back to you on those.
My last one which I AM trying harder at is taking more pictures... whether it be of my friends when we are out with my SHITTY or NICE camera. This weekend I am going to buy some filters and a ring flash for my Canon. I will test it out and see what happens.
So, about my weekend. I went out to Dino's with my besties! Everyone was there. By the pictures you would only think that Cherice, Me, and Gen were there but I PROMISE, there were other bodies there as well. :) LOL. I sang "Beautiful" by Christina Aguilera.. Yeah, not so... Um, beautiful? LOL. I also did "Killing Me Softly" By The Fugees. Good stuff.
These next pictures are from The Wynn Hotel and Casino. Louis and I went there one day to drop off a friend at work and then ended up walking around and hanging out. We just wanted to act like tourists. That didnt last long. We came across the waterfall outside and started snapping pictures of us in front of it. It ended there. We walked back to my car to get in and leave....but...
For ME, it was a hot day BUT FOR LOUIS, he thought it was a BIT chilly. SOOO, I gave him my jacket. He didnt like how it fit. I, however, thought he looked adorable. I got a few good chuckles. LOL.
On the way HOME from the Strip there was this cool strange building that the city is adding on to MORE buildings SOON to come. We were driving past it and I thought it was cool. I had Louis snap the picture as we were in the turning lane. It's over at the World Market Center? I believe thats the name. A HUGE furniture store. I don't know what THIS has to do with furniture? ....but here it is. :)
AND, FINALLY LAST but NOT LEAST, over the weekend, Louis and I babysat for his sister. She has the CUTEST baby I have ever seen. His name is Adam. I love him. He was so good ALL night. I played baseball with him, dorve his car, and he even sat in my lap for a few to watch some SpongeBob. I thought you might get a kick out of how adorable he is. :)
That's all I got for you guys now but more to come. I promise! :)
Friday, January 23, 2009
2 More books to add.
It's Friday. I am TIRED as usual, and I am happy that the weekend is here! I have had my coffee for the morning, finished my weekly newsletter that I do, and I am calmly waiting for someone to call me up to the front to sit there and READ. So, I am up to page 554 in Breaking Dawn. I have EXACTLY 200 pages to go. It's getting better and I cannot put this book down. I haven't really been working, (I mean there isn't MUCH for me to do right now anyways), and I have just been reading, reading, reading. Since I am ALMOST done, I am excited about starting my other books as well. :) I have added 2 to my list and I wanted to share.
Digital Photography For Dummies - I saw this book at Target in the DOLLAR section. It's small, SIMPLE and seems to be easy to understand. I like easy. LOL. As most of you KNOW, I am however wanting to BE A PHOTOGRAPHER, so ANYTHING helps. :) It should tell me basically things that I already know, but then some.
Why Men Love Bitches - Why DO men love bitches? I don't know but I am going to find out. It's weird that us girls WANT the nice guy. The ones that open doors for us, buy us flowers for NO REASON at all, and make us giddy and blush with every look or touch.. BUT then we want ALL of that, PLUS we want them to act like COMPLETE assholes as well and keep US on our toes. Act like they care. We want the men that are confident and nice at the same time. The ones that DON'T take it TOO far but far enough. Maybe this book is the same but for MEN. I am sure most of you have read it so I am catching up with the times. It's been in my car FOR-EVEEER and I havent gotten around to even opening the first page. I am sure it goes on about how guys WANT a nice girl they can take home to MOMMY, but also the girl thats going to be a comeplete and UTTER BITCH, to make their lives more interesting. To keep THEM on their toes. To fight with them and to stand up for themselves when NEEDED. Guys want the same things that girls want. A confident woman, but not TOO confident. A girl thats going to make them feel butterflies and giddy just like they make us. I don't know. I am going to read it and see if my THEORY is right. LOL. Ill get back to you.
Digital Photography For Dummies - I saw this book at Target in the DOLLAR section. It's small, SIMPLE and seems to be easy to understand. I like easy. LOL. As most of you KNOW, I am however wanting to BE A PHOTOGRAPHER, so ANYTHING helps. :) It should tell me basically things that I already know, but then some.
Why Men Love Bitches - Why DO men love bitches? I don't know but I am going to find out. It's weird that us girls WANT the nice guy. The ones that open doors for us, buy us flowers for NO REASON at all, and make us giddy and blush with every look or touch.. BUT then we want ALL of that, PLUS we want them to act like COMPLETE assholes as well and keep US on our toes. Act like they care. We want the men that are confident and nice at the same time. The ones that DON'T take it TOO far but far enough. Maybe this book is the same but for MEN. I am sure most of you have read it so I am catching up with the times. It's been in my car FOR-EVEEER and I havent gotten around to even opening the first page. I am sure it goes on about how guys WANT a nice girl they can take home to MOMMY, but also the girl thats going to be a comeplete and UTTER BITCH, to make their lives more interesting. To keep THEM on their toes. To fight with them and to stand up for themselves when NEEDED. Guys want the same things that girls want. A confident woman, but not TOO confident. A girl thats going to make them feel butterflies and giddy just like they make us. I don't know. I am going to read it and see if my THEORY is right. LOL. Ill get back to you.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Photography from MY eye.
I went to San Diego in November with my boyfriend Louis. We went to the beach and took some pictures. I just have a few that I would like to share. Not MANY but a few. I think that I did a good job at capturing the waves, sunset, and especially SHAMU! I put this first picture in another BLOG, but thats ok. :) Enjoy.
This was honestly one of my favorite pictures from the trip! I couldn't keep my camera out too long because we were in the SOAK ZONE!
The rest of these are just from the beach. We had an amazing time there and we cannot wait to go back!
Sometimes getting out of Las Vegas is magical. I wish I could surf and live at the beach. I'd be a lot more tan.
This was honestly one of my favorite pictures from the trip! I couldn't keep my camera out too long because we were in the SOAK ZONE!
The rest of these are just from the beach. We had an amazing time there and we cannot wait to go back!
Sometimes getting out of Las Vegas is magical. I wish I could surf and live at the beach. I'd be a lot more tan.
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