New 30 Day Challenge.. :)

I stole this from Marte and can't wait to start it.. :) The goal is to write a letter to each one of these people as your blog of the day.
I sit at work and have little to do sometimes so I am ready to take this on.. :) It'll be easy, hard, fun, MAY make me cry, but I can do it.. AND I hope you all enjoy it and maybe do it too.. :)

day 1 — your best friend
day 2 — your crush
day 3 — your parents
day 4 — your sibling (or closest relative)
day 5 — your dreams
day 6 — a stranger
day 7 — your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
day 8 — your favorite internet friend
day 9 — someone you wish you could meet
day 10 — someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
day 11 — a deceased person you wish you could talk to
day 12 — the person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
day 13 — someone you wish could forgive you
day 14 — someone you’ve drifted away from
day 15 — the person you miss the most
day 16 — someone that’s not in your state/country
day 17 — someone from your childhood
day 18 — the person that you wish you could be
day 19 — someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
day 20 — the one that broke your heart the hardest
day 21 — someone you judged by their first impression
day 22 — someone you want to give a second chance to
day 23 — the last person you kissed
day 24 — the person that gave you your favorite memory
day 25 — the person you know that is going through the worst of times
day 26 — the last person you made a pinky promise to
day 27 — the friendliest person you knew for only one day
day 28 — someone that changed your life
day 29 — the person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
day 30 — your reflection in the mirror

Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.

I decided to do 2 days in one b/c I do what I want. Lol

Dear Maggie,

You are an amazing woman with SO MANY qualities. You deserve the MOST out of life and sometimes you settle for less than what you THINK you deserve. I love your personality, your eyes and how nice and kind you can be at times, unless someone fucks you over, then the bitchy side comes out. BUT I love that about you too. I love that you have gotten more of a backbone over the past few years and stopped letting everyone walk all over you. I love that you would do ANYTHING for your friends and family at the drop of a hat. I love that you are funny, witty and almost everyone you cross paths with thinks you are wonderful and have such a great outlook on life. I love that you always look at the glass half full instead of half empty and you make the BEST out of ANY situation... You have made MANY mistakes which I KNOW you are TRULY sorry for and wish that you wouldnt have made, but thats life. You lived and you learned from ALL of those things. The only thing I DONT LOVE about you, is that you are VERY irresponsible when it comes to your health. I would LOVE to see you stick to the gym, eat better, and be happier in life. Don't let people that mean NOTHING, get you down. They obviously werent worth your time or tears and dont care about anyone but themselves. I love that you can be strong, but weak. I think we ALL have that flaw at times. I just want you to keep your head up and understand that sometimes life is rough and you will have the BEST days and the WORSE days but if you wake up each day and JUST smile, you will get thru ANYTHING. You are a GREAT person inside and out and all your close friends and family know that.. Dont let ANYONE let you ever doubt that. :)

Love,
Me

Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.

One thing I HOPE to change about myself, is how easily I fall for people and how NAIVE I can be. I need to be better about that. I let myself and all my feelings get too involved with things and people and I need to be better about it. :)

<3

Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?

Well, if I were pregnant, I would keep it. :) Well, depending on whos it was.. Lol. If I GOT someone pregnant, id wonder how that happened seeing as I DONT have a penis? That'd be weird.

<3

Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?

Id have to say the BEST thing going for me right now.. is LIFE. I am breathing. I get to spend many more days with friends, family and people that make me smile. I think my attitude about life is a lot better and a lot more clear. I may not be putting everything I NEED to do in effect but it'll happen sooner than later. :)

<3

Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?

Hasnt EVERYONE?! Maybe not in the sense to KILL themselves but just say FUCK IT and not want to do ANYTHING but lay in bed? Lol.
I havent ever thought about taking my life. I LOVE life too much. I MAY have hard times, stress and bullshit here and there, but NEVER enough to end it. PLUS, id be too scared to do it AND I know EVERYONE would miss me WAY TOO MUCH! Duh! Lol.

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Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.

Hmm.. THIS is a good question. Seeing as I ALMOST died at the beginning of September by being dumb and not taking care of myself properly, im not sure WHY I believe I am still alive.. Lol. Maybe its because GOD wanted me to know that I am stronger than I think that I am. Myabe he wants to show me that I need to start LIVING IT UP instead of living it down and being stressed out about the little things. Appreciate life. Friends. Lovers. NOT make bad choices and show everyone that I can be a better person than I HAVE been in these past few months.. OR maybe he wants to torture me. Lol. I am not QUITE sure. Either way, I have been doing good. Going to the gym when I can and taking it easy. I havent been EATING THAT much better but I DO watch myself as much as possible. :) I am hoping to live to be 100 or so. Lol. I hope I reach that goal.

<3

Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)

I would do this but there are TOO many songs, too many people and not enough time to write this. I cant choose ONE person with 14 million songs of WHY it reminds me of them. Lol.

<3

Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.

I have a few.

-graduated HS.
-went to college for photography.
-spent more time with my dad before he died.
-made better choices about things I regret NOW.

I am sure if I think about it, there are a few more. :)

Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.

Hmmm.. there are a few things that stick out in my mind.. Im gonna plead the 5th on this one.. All of you close to me know what they are.. :)

<3

Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?

Well, does she die? Lol Either way, id be right by her side. DUH! I dont care how little or big a fight was with her.. Id be right there until she was perfectly ok.. :) I love my BFF MARTE! If I was right or wrong i'd apologize and we would going back to being ok.. Even if we did fight, (which is rare, i dont even know if weve had a fight? Lol), we will always be BEST friends.. :) I love that bitch.

Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.

Where do I start?

Drugs. I dont judge people that DO drugs. I JUST DONT do them. My dad passed away from them and seeing him use them SO often while I was growing up, I decided against doing HARDCORE drugs. I have smoked weed at parties or hangin out with friends, but I would NEVER do drugs that could possibly kill me the first time I use them. To each their own. If you can handle yourself and not become addicted, more power to you. I have an addictive personality so I may be in trouble if I start. Lol.

Alcohol. I drink. End of story. Lol.

Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?

I think they are both BULLSHIT.

I could go on and on, but I dont want to offend ANYONE.

So, if you know me, you know how I feel. There will NEVER be a perfect Religion OR President. There will ALWAYS be 2 sides to everything. :)

Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.

I say LET them get married! I have SO many gay friends that have been thru hard times, growing up and coming out.. If they want to love and BE LOVED, and share their last name with someone LET THEM! I am sure they would take marriage A LOT more serious than most straight people.. Honestly.. Look at Brit Brit and her man Jason.. How many times has Liza Manelli (Sp?) been married? If the gays wanna be as MISERABLE as the straights, let them... It wont ruin your day and I AM SURE you will carry on about your business as the rest of us do! Thank GOD it's legalized NOW! Take that REPUBLICANS! Fuckers. Lol