day 3 — your parents

Dearest Madre,

Where can I begin to tell everyone how amazing you are? Thru my childhood, we werent always the richest, we werent always in one place for a long time, we didnt always have the nicest things and we werent always 100% happy, but you did ALL you could for me and Travis when times were tough. You made sure we had food on the table, clothes on our back, a car to get back and forth from point A to point B with, and you made sure to let us know HOW MUCH you loved us.. Dad had a gambling problem, a drug problem and wasnt always the smartest when it came to family but there were times when we were all HAPPY for a moment and those are some of the best times I remember. We struggled more than a lot of my friends' families but when I was smaller I thought it was normal. To me, I thought it was fine b/c I had you, dad and Travis, and of course my FAVE Cabbage Patch doll Maggie Delta... Lol As I grew up, I realized that some of these problems we had werent ok BUT I promised myself that when I had kids, I was going to try and be like you and make them HAPPY no matter what kind of sitation I was in. Times are hard and I know you did the best you could and thats ALL that matters.

After dad passed, I thought we were all going to lose it. I missed him SO much and I didnt think we would be ok for a while.. I thought that you may have a nervous break down or have a broken heart forever, but you have showed how tough you are in front of us all and have carried us more than you know. You have helped me realize that even though someone so IMPORTANT can be gone in an instance, you can still love life and go on. You still do EVERYTHING you can for me, Travis, Amamnda, Dave and SOON TO BE HERE, Noah and you still stay strong even though I know it's probably tough without dad around. You were with him for 31 yrs and I cant imagine losing someone that I was SO in tune with and SO in love with for THAT long... Its still hard for me to be COMPLETELY ok even after a 2 yr on and off relationship that I had, (I am better but you cant help who you love I guess right?). You and dad had your CRAZY IN LOVE stages when you were younger and even when you were older. You fought, he always drove you crazy, and you wanted to KILL him sometimes, but you loved him UNCONDTIONALLY, you have loved ALL of us uncondtionally. You put up with a lot from us and somehow you were pretty much the ONLY one that stayed SEMI sane in the house. Lol. 5 dogs, 8 cats, and 5 people later, you still are the strongest woman I know and I love you for how you have dealt with SO much for SO long. :) You are the best mom anyone could have b/c no matter what ALL you have done with your life is love others.. I love you mom.

<3

day 2 — your crush

Dearest Jake, aka the LOVE of my life, how do I love thee? Let me count the ways. Lol.

I think I began this obsession with you when you were in Bubble Boy and from then on it was ALL downhill for me.. I cannot get enough of your face or your talent. My ALL time favorite movie that you have done SO FAR, is Jarhead.. I dont know if its because you were so GOD DAMN BUFF and HOT, or because you actually did a great job playing a Marine. I also loved you in The Good Girl. You were sweet, sensitive, and kind.. You wrote love letters to Jennifer Aniston but then in the end, since you couldnt be with her, you killed yourself because you loved her SO MUCH and couldnt be without her. Not a smart move. Ive been here the whole time. You should have just MOVED to Vegas and I WOULD HAVE TOTALLY been with you. I had a douchebag of a boyfriend i would have left for you in a heartbeat! Lol.. That would have been the PERFECT ending.

If you ever DO find yourself in Las Vegas and you decide Taylor Swift is too much of a BORING, twangy, red neck, country girl for you, give me a holllllller.. LOVE always, your #1 fan, Maggie. :)

P.S. I can't wait for Love and Other Drugs.. :)

day 1 — your best friend

Marte!
I THOUGHT this was going to be simple but there are SO MANY things I can say about you, that I dont know if ill have enough time or SPACE! :)

How can I breath with NO AIR? You are like AIR to me. The Peanut Butter to my Jelly, (well sugarfree jelly), the cheese to my crackers, the Mario Lopez to my ABDC, (Did he just say we Da Man-aze?), and the 16 to my pregnant. Lol.

No really where do I start.. Horizon. BEST school EVER! Only b/c it brought us together, otherwise, id say that school is NOT so good.. Lol. Anyways, back to you. (Its obvious we both have A.D.D.)..

Youre beautiful in everyway. I love how LOVING and caring you are. How SMART you are. How you give me advice on certain guys because you know someone JUST like them and youve been dealing with it longer.. I love that we finish each others sentences because we are SO ALIKE its SCARY! "Smithsonian!"... WTF?!

Like you said in your letter to me, we are DEF SOULMATES and you are DEF my other half! You are like the sister I never had, (nor did I want one), but I am glad you came into my life. You have been there for me when I was at my lowest and when I thought life could get NO WORSE.. You have been there with me thru thick and thin and I appreciate you more than you know.. :) You make me smile and laugh when I am sad and you and I NEVER fight which I LOVE... I am SO glad I get to call you my BEST FRIEND everyday and I cant wait to grow old with you and make SO many more memories.. Random road trips and making MANY more mistakes are DEF in the near future now that we are BOTH single!.. I love you A LOT and I am happy that we have each other when times are easy, hard, when boys break our hearts and need MEN to pick up the pieces, when they love us too much and when they become obsessed with us and we have to either CHANGE our phone numbers OR MOVE! Lol. You are amazing in everyway and I hope that everyone sees it as much as I do.. :)

P.S. Sorry about Farley peeing everywhere. Lol. im gonna make him wear a diaper from now on.

LOVE,
your hottest bestest friend EVER! :)

New 30 Day Challenge.. :)

I stole this from Marte and can't wait to start it.. :) The goal is to write a letter to each one of these people as your blog of the day.
I sit at work and have little to do sometimes so I am ready to take this on.. :) It'll be easy, hard, fun, MAY make me cry, but I can do it.. AND I hope you all enjoy it and maybe do it too.. :)

day 1 — your best friend
day 2 — your crush
day 3 — your parents
day 4 — your sibling (or closest relative)
day 5 — your dreams
day 6 — a stranger
day 7 — your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
day 8 — your favorite internet friend
day 9 — someone you wish you could meet
day 10 — someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
day 11 — a deceased person you wish you could talk to
day 12 — the person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
day 13 — someone you wish could forgive you
day 14 — someone you’ve drifted away from
day 15 — the person you miss the most
day 16 — someone that’s not in your state/country
day 17 — someone from your childhood
day 18 — the person that you wish you could be
day 19 — someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
day 20 — the one that broke your heart the hardest
day 21 — someone you judged by their first impression
day 22 — someone you want to give a second chance to
day 23 — the last person you kissed
day 24 — the person that gave you your favorite memory
day 25 — the person you know that is going through the worst of times
day 26 — the last person you made a pinky promise to
day 27 — the friendliest person you knew for only one day
day 28 — someone that changed your life
day 29 — the person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
day 30 — your reflection in the mirror

Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.

I decided to do 2 days in one b/c I do what I want. Lol

Dear Maggie,

You are an amazing woman with SO MANY qualities. You deserve the MOST out of life and sometimes you settle for less than what you THINK you deserve. I love your personality, your eyes and how nice and kind you can be at times, unless someone fucks you over, then the bitchy side comes out. BUT I love that about you too. I love that you have gotten more of a backbone over the past few years and stopped letting everyone walk all over you. I love that you would do ANYTHING for your friends and family at the drop of a hat. I love that you are funny, witty and almost everyone you cross paths with thinks you are wonderful and have such a great outlook on life. I love that you always look at the glass half full instead of half empty and you make the BEST out of ANY situation... You have made MANY mistakes which I KNOW you are TRULY sorry for and wish that you wouldnt have made, but thats life. You lived and you learned from ALL of those things. The only thing I DONT LOVE about you, is that you are VERY irresponsible when it comes to your health. I would LOVE to see you stick to the gym, eat better, and be happier in life. Don't let people that mean NOTHING, get you down. They obviously werent worth your time or tears and dont care about anyone but themselves. I love that you can be strong, but weak. I think we ALL have that flaw at times. I just want you to keep your head up and understand that sometimes life is rough and you will have the BEST days and the WORSE days but if you wake up each day and JUST smile, you will get thru ANYTHING. You are a GREAT person inside and out and all your close friends and family know that.. Dont let ANYONE let you ever doubt that. :)

Love,
Me

Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.

One thing I HOPE to change about myself, is how easily I fall for people and how NAIVE I can be. I need to be better about that. I let myself and all my feelings get too involved with things and people and I need to be better about it. :)

<3

Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?

Well, if I were pregnant, I would keep it. :) Well, depending on whos it was.. Lol. If I GOT someone pregnant, id wonder how that happened seeing as I DONT have a penis? That'd be weird.

<3

Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?

Id have to say the BEST thing going for me right now.. is LIFE. I am breathing. I get to spend many more days with friends, family and people that make me smile. I think my attitude about life is a lot better and a lot more clear. I may not be putting everything I NEED to do in effect but it'll happen sooner than later. :)

<3

Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?

Hasnt EVERYONE?! Maybe not in the sense to KILL themselves but just say FUCK IT and not want to do ANYTHING but lay in bed? Lol.
I havent ever thought about taking my life. I LOVE life too much. I MAY have hard times, stress and bullshit here and there, but NEVER enough to end it. PLUS, id be too scared to do it AND I know EVERYONE would miss me WAY TOO MUCH! Duh! Lol.

<3

Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.

Hmm.. THIS is a good question. Seeing as I ALMOST died at the beginning of September by being dumb and not taking care of myself properly, im not sure WHY I believe I am still alive.. Lol. Maybe its because GOD wanted me to know that I am stronger than I think that I am. Myabe he wants to show me that I need to start LIVING IT UP instead of living it down and being stressed out about the little things. Appreciate life. Friends. Lovers. NOT make bad choices and show everyone that I can be a better person than I HAVE been in these past few months.. OR maybe he wants to torture me. Lol. I am not QUITE sure. Either way, I have been doing good. Going to the gym when I can and taking it easy. I havent been EATING THAT much better but I DO watch myself as much as possible. :) I am hoping to live to be 100 or so. Lol. I hope I reach that goal.

<3

Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)

I would do this but there are TOO many songs, too many people and not enough time to write this. I cant choose ONE person with 14 million songs of WHY it reminds me of them. Lol.

<3

Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.

I have a few.

-graduated HS.
-went to college for photography.
-spent more time with my dad before he died.
-made better choices about things I regret NOW.

I am sure if I think about it, there are a few more. :)

Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.

Hmmm.. there are a few things that stick out in my mind.. Im gonna plead the 5th on this one.. All of you close to me know what they are.. :)

<3

Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?

Well, does she die? Lol Either way, id be right by her side. DUH! I dont care how little or big a fight was with her.. Id be right there until she was perfectly ok.. :) I love my BFF MARTE! If I was right or wrong i'd apologize and we would going back to being ok.. Even if we did fight, (which is rare, i dont even know if weve had a fight? Lol), we will always be BEST friends.. :) I love that bitch.

Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.

Where do I start?

Drugs. I dont judge people that DO drugs. I JUST DONT do them. My dad passed away from them and seeing him use them SO often while I was growing up, I decided against doing HARDCORE drugs. I have smoked weed at parties or hangin out with friends, but I would NEVER do drugs that could possibly kill me the first time I use them. To each their own. If you can handle yourself and not become addicted, more power to you. I have an addictive personality so I may be in trouble if I start. Lol.

Alcohol. I drink. End of story. Lol.

Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?

I think they are both BULLSHIT.

I could go on and on, but I dont want to offend ANYONE.

So, if you know me, you know how I feel. There will NEVER be a perfect Religion OR President. There will ALWAYS be 2 sides to everything. :)

Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.

I say LET them get married! I have SO many gay friends that have been thru hard times, growing up and coming out.. If they want to love and BE LOVED, and share their last name with someone LET THEM! I am sure they would take marriage A LOT more serious than most straight people.. Honestly.. Look at Brit Brit and her man Jason.. How many times has Liza Manelli (Sp?) been married? If the gays wanna be as MISERABLE as the straights, let them... It wont ruin your day and I AM SURE you will carry on about your business as the rest of us do! Thank GOD it's legalized NOW! Take that REPUBLICANS! Fuckers. Lol

Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something

Well, im gonna be honest, ive read A LOT of books.. Ive even wrote blogs about the ones I read.. so IF you are that interested go back a few months on my blogger and read all about them and how they helped me at those specific times.. Only one really stands out in my mind, and that was The Way of The Warrior.. it had a lot of good positive things and you should all read it. :) I creased pages, wrote notes and wrote a blog about it.. It was that good to me.. It helped me out at the time that I was reading it so please take the time and read it as well.. :)

Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.

DEF LOVE..not forever. Just right now. it's just time for me to focus on me and not let some DUMB, immature little boy bring me down anymore than he did. I can DEF do without the stress, worrying, and being second best. Ill find that right guy someday and he will love me for all my good and all my bad. :) Ill find the one that no matter HOW crazy life gets, he'll stick around cause thats what MEN do. Not boys. SO yes, I can and WILL do without love for a while.. Im working on me now and getting back to 100% Happy Maggie.. :)

Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.

Well, Ive never TRIED living without it, but INSULIN DUH! Lol.. I HAVE to have it.. especially after my little episode 2 weeks ago!

Also, ive tried to live without Farley. (Well, I had to for a while before he was fixed and I was living with Cherice).. He makes me smile because he is FAT as hell, is ALWAYS excited when he sees me and HAS to sleep under the covers on my legs or right next to my chest EVERYNIGHT. :) He is my heart. As gay as that sounds. Lol.

AND I COULDNT live without:
Diet Soda
Taco Bell
Ice Cream
Burger King Breakfast
Chapstick
Lotion
and any other goodness that makes me smile.

I love life and I am getting happier by the day.. :)