Ive had it for a few days now.. Louis and I broke up, OBVIOUSLY.. I feel sad, mad, angry, and distraught over it. I can barely eat, sleep, (thats why im up at 330am), and I have little motivation to do anything other than PEE and get right back into bed.. I KNOW, it'll pass but a part of me doesnt want it to. Louis to me was someone that I could laugh with, fight with, HATE, scream at, have the most passionate moments with and be myself around.. I literally feel like my dog has died... It sounds stupid and I am sure you are all shaking your head because you all felt like he wasnt worth it and ISNT worth it, but to me he was. To me he was my world and I wanted to marry him and have babies with him, and share my life with him... No one can say anything to me to make me feel better at this point. I am stressing way too much and I feel lost. Lonely. Betrayed. All I wanted was for him to love me right this time.. I had faith that it would happen..
Ughhh.
Ill let you know when my mood changes... :(
everything happens for a reason.. i believe with all my heart that liars and cheaters CAN change... but only if THEY truely want to... because *I* was a liar and a cheater... and i know in my heart... that is not the person i am meant to be... i just handled stress the wrong way.. i aknowledge that and take responsibilty... if he can do that.. i am sure one day he will change too...and maybe by then.. you two will see you were never meant for eachother in the first place... "God does not give you the people you WANT. He gives you the people you NEED; to teach you, to hurt you, to love you, to make you laugh...to make you exactly the person you were meant to be."
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