Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.

WELLLLL, I am SURE you all know the answer... Yes. Mr. Ference. Lol.. BUT I think in a way, he has also taught me a lot about myself and how truely strong I can be. He has pushed, pulled, made my days hell, made my days great, but he is one of the VERY few people that I can count on when I really need him the most.. He gets me, he doesnt get me, he makes me cry, laugh, love, hate and scream but at the end of the day, I know who I want to be laying next to when I close my eyes.. And that would be him..

Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.

Someone who has made my life worth living would be, my dad. I know he was crazy and I know he was out of it a lot more times than not, but after he passed, I realized life is pretty short and you never know what could happen... I knew this before but its just sad that he was 53 and didnt live to see 100. lol.. I want to..I miss him EVERYDAY and realize out of everyone in my family, I was the closest to him.. I just wish he was still here.. :)

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Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.

I sat and thought about this for a few minutes.. Pondering WHAT it is that I hope I never have to do, and the only thing that I could come up with was, I hope I never have to have surgery.. I get scared of going "under" ONLY because I am diabetic and with how I have taken care of my body these past few years I know I could have complications.. :( I also hope I never have to be on Kidney Dialysis. I couldnt stand being in the hospital EVERYDAY. Therefore, like I said in previous posts, I am working out and trying to remain healthy.. Wish me luck. :)

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Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.

Become healthier.. I have managed to go 4 days without Soda OR fast food! I am on TRACK and I have been working out since Monday! It's only been less than a week but I feel better and I want to keep it up. :) Like I said, I am not trying to be SUPER DUPER skinny, (that takes time anyways), but I JUST want to live a healthy life and be good about my Diabetes.. well, somewhat.. Lol.

Ans also..

Become a good photographer.. I would say GREAT, but that takes time and A LOT of effort.. As we ALL know, I am less than motivated when it comes to doing things but I will eventually put my foot forward and do what I can. :)

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Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.

I forgive YOU for:

Cheating on me and making me hate you for a while because of all the shitty things you did to me and I had to go thru. I hope this time around you are different and I dont have to go thru it all over again. Prove me wrong because Ill never love ANYONE like I love you. I've tried and failed.

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Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.

I forgive myself for not taking better care of my body after realizing I was Diabetic... however, I am trying to take the high road and REALLY stay motivated to lose weight and just become healthier even if im not the skinniest or the fittest. I just want to feel better and not so lazy.. :) I also forgive myself for thinking I never said I love you enough. There are days where I want to call you and just say hi, but I know I cant because you arent here anymore. I know that you KNEW I loved you regardless of how many times I said it... I just wish I had spent more time with you that last night at home. I love you Dad. :)

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Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.

I love how I would do ANYTHING for family and friends WHEN needed... I also love how FUNNY I am and at times SUPER WITTY... I love how I can be so boyish ONE day and then look GLAMOUROUS the next. I love how I have gotten MUCH more confident as I have gotten older and learned that being a LITTLE slutty is STILL ok and probably will be til Im about 40.. Lol. I love how I love HARD and PASSIONATELY and I will fight to get what I want. I love that I believe in Happily Ever After and I want it SO BAD. I just know there are tough times I have to get thru to get there but I am willing to do whatever it takes.

Til Day 3.

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